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[2969] First Love as unfulfilled human potential

First Love is a sad story, with an unsatisfying happy ending. Over the past few weeks, I have slowly rationalized the sadness—why did I feel so sad?—by linking two disappointments together. One disappointment is about unfulfilled love, and the other, which is our focus today, is unfulfilled human potential.

While watching the series in the first week of December, I felt sad quite early, well before I understood how First Love was about unfulfilled love (ignore the title and the song it refers to, as both foretell the story ahead of its narrative arch by too much). I knew the cause of my sadness quickly: both lovers, after growing up dreaming of achieving something great, ended up becoming a building security personnel and a cab driver. They became failures.

Both jobs are unglamorous. The two would not rank highly in things most young men and women would like to do during their mid-life years in any economy.

In the series, there is a subplot where one cab driver laments about the direction of his life. In telling the story of adult Yae Noguchi somewhere in the middle of the series, we are told that she has fallen on hard time: unable to finish university due to an accident, married early, divorced and then forced to give up her son due to relative poverty.

As the series progresses and jumping around the timelines, the sadness intensifies, because… well spoiler if you have not watched me… both of them worked hard to get into a good school. In some ways, those are underemployment, a reality for many.

p/s — happy new year. Speaking of potential, I have further thoughts on output gap and BNM rate hikes. Maybe I will post them just before Thursday, the rate decision day.

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Pop culture

[2967] Replaying First Love, over and over again

Do you remember, a time before the new millennium, before the internet was a real thing, when a movie or a series you were watching that you liked very much, were coming to an end, and you wished it had not? Its end created a feeling of loss inside of you that could only be filled up with a replay. Yet, there was no chance for that, because it was on TV, or playing at the cinema, or it was on a rental tape you must return today.

If you were lucky, you would own the tape and replay it to your heart’s content. I remember moments when I had it and kept replaying a particular scene or two. I had Disney’s Aladdin, and became an expert at rewinding em to almost the exact time when A Whole New World would start. When I was even younger, I had a Walkman filled up with Sesame Street’s songs, that I kept shooting for C is for Cookie a hundred times or more.

I have been going through that feeling again recently after watching the final episode of First Love, a short Japanese series inspired by Utada Hikaru’s song of the same title. That song was widely circulated via illegal mp3 (was there ever a legal mp3?) among adopters of the 1990s internet, downloaded maybe from Kaaza, or mIRC, or Napster, or from some random server in wild wild web.

The series is full of beautiful shots, and moments, but the one I have been returning over and over again, thanks to Netflix, is the final scene of Episode 8. Spoiler here (a big one indeed), but it is the scene where Yae Noguchi, a victim of memory loss, finally remembers Harumichi Namiki’s significance in her life, and tears up. Her sudden recollection is triggered by a song of their first kiss from two decades ago in the late 1990s.

All the best threads of the series end at that particular scene, which, I think, can move the hearts of stone.

Episode 8, The Proust Effect On A Certain Afternoon, is not the final part, but I think it should have. The final episode tries to create an and-they-live-happily-ever-after ending, but I feel it is an afterthought. As somebody said to me, most first loves, ends sadly. That makes Episode 8 all the more powerful, and closer to reality.

So, I pretend Episode 9 does not exist.

p/s — the guy is from Samurai-X!

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[2945] Watching Foundation

Amid the Dune hype, it is easy to miss the other classic sci-fi hitting the screen. A different screen in a different format, but screen nonetheless. Isaac Asimov’s Foundation has been adapted for Apple TV+ streaming service with 8 of 10 episodes aired. I myself found out about it after browsing Facebook.

I read Foundation a long time ago as a teenager, and the idea of psychohistory was so attractive that I was bought into its universe so deeply. I know Star Wars before Foundation, but I understand Trantor, the capital planet of the Empire in Foundation, first before Coruscant, the capital of the Empire in Star Wars.

I was not the only one loving Foundation obviously. I could not. I remember reading in an interview where Paul Krugman said he went into economics because of Foundation; the predictive power of psychohistory does have a hint of economics in it. Lots of probabilities, and possibly econometrics.

But that was a long time ago, and I admit, I do not remember all the details. My reading list meanwhile has moved on from science fiction to stuff grounded more on reality. There is only one unread sci-fi on my shelf waiting to be opened: Cixin Liu’s The Three Body Problem (okay, there is also Forward the Foundation, but I was told, it is an unjust prequel to the original trilogy).

So, I thought I must be getting old and utterly forgetful when I watched the first episode of Apple’s Foundation. While Hari Seldon was there, the details did not feel right. The Genetic Dynasty? Could I have missed something that big? The pace of the series, as I kept on watching the rest of the series, felt too fast to what I remembered it. In the novels, hundreds of years would pass. In the series, less than a human lifetime.

As it turns out, my memory is fully intact. A little internet refresher reminds me of the Foundation I know. Further research reveals that the series diverges away from the novel, adding new elements and throwing away some.

I know people who are angry at this. The deviation from the novel feels blasphemous. Foundation feels like a holy book, and the series defiles it.

At first, I felt the same way, but really, at risk of being cancelled, I enjoy the series. I really do (and I really like Jared Harris, the man playing Hari Seldon, from his Sherlock Holmes days).

And clearly this is not the first time an original work has been reimagined. Star Wars, under Disney, did that when they threw out of the window all of original storylines told by the Thrawn Trilogy and more. Marvel, under Disney too, definitely changed the background to some of its major characters. Star Trek rebooted its whole universe, rather unsuccessfully if I might add.

So, as blasphemous as it might be, the act of fiddling the original story, I have been desensitized to the idea. A retelling could be as fulfilling as the reading the original.

After all, we are living in an age where actual history is being reassessed and retold in different lights. Old understandings are being overturned. Revisionism aplenty.

Not be quite a parallel, but it seems like a zeitgeist of our time.

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[2871] Kami junjung cita-cita luhur

Puji dan syukur pada Ilahi
Anugerahnya tiada terhingga
Kedamaian kemakmuran
Malaysiaku bahagia

Dengan tekad untuk berjaya
Berbakti pada nusa dan bangsa
Kami junjung cita-cita luhur
Perpaduan seluruh negeri

Seia sekata sehati sejiwa
Menghadapi cabaran
Kami sedia kami setia
Berkorban untuk negara

Bersemarak Malaysia tercinta
Kibarkan panji kebesarannya
Kami rela menjaga namamu
Sejahtera Malaysia

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[2870] Bendera berkibar di angkasa

Bendera berkibar di angkasa
Lambang negara jaya
Rakyat sepakat sehati sejiwa
Dengan berbakti dengan megah

Hadapi cabaran masa muka
Penuh tenaga murni
Bakti dicurah sehara-sehala
Dengan wawasan yang suci

Wawasan meningkat kemajuan
Tiada lagi kepincangan
Kemewahan rasa-dirasai
Bersama kita nikmati

Wawasan 2020
Satu pandangan jauh
Bukan impian malah kenyataan
Bersama kita jayakan